I couldn't seem to figure out how I became a completely different person. I used to think once I entered high school I'd make the right choices and become mature. Plus, when you enter high school your suppose to turn into a young adult right? Well, not me. I guess I got caught up in my teenage years, not knowing who my real friends were, doing bad things and having nobody to tell me what's right or wrong even though I knew better.
I never really used to have meaningful conversations with my mom. "Jazalin do this, do that!" is all she yelled around the house when I was there. Other than her screaming or sending me to do favors she'd be busy with her boyfriend or at least just too busy for me. Honestly, that never seemed to bother me because I'd rather be locked in my room drawing or something.
What bothered me the most was when my mom yelled and complained at me about my friend Melanie. She'd talk about me not being on the right track if I kept hanging out with her. I really didn't care what mom had to say so I continued being her friend. Meanwhile, I started to realize Melanie was like my bad luck charm. She got me hooked on sneaking out of my house late at night, drinking alcoholic beverages and smoking cigarettes. Smoking really became a bad habit, during lunch, free period or whenever I had the chance I'd smoke. I even got caught once and my mom beat the crap out of me but of course I didn't learn my lesson.
Soon enough I got tired of doing the same in appropriate stuff for about three months. Although I wanted to stop I couldn't, it became a new addiction in me. As time passed it also interfered with my school work and knowledge. I was a complete mess!
On a Wednesday, I remembered arriving to my Biology class with a mean hangover. There had been a new kid entering the class. Mr. Campbell assigned his seat next to mine. That really didn't make my day any better even though he was kind of cute and all with his dimples. About the second week of Anthony being a student at Johnson High he was very comfortable talking to me. I never really wanted to tell anybody but I had a baby crush on him. And since I did I used to invite him over my house to play video games. He would never turn me down and that's what I liked about him.
After spending so much time together I completely forgot and ditched Melanie. Even though I wanted to party and be a bad ass, he made me feel like a better person. I hated keeping that away from Anthony so one day I had confessed about the feelings I had towards him. It really didn't turn out so bad since he told me I was the type of intelligent and pretty girl he'd want to be with. After all the times I woke up and felt like it was raining but raining just on me Anthony changed everything.
I had to tell Melanie she wasn't living a life she should and if she wanted to continue living that life I didn't want to be part of it. Of course, Melanie being an apathetic person she was going to continue what she does. Being closer to my mom was an option but Anthony convinced me to make it a requirement. My mom adored him for being such a "great young man."
Two years later, me being a seventeen year old, I'm proud to say the old me is gone away. Anthony completely changed my life and turned me into a better person. It must've been love that helped me realize that the life I lived couldn't be how my life was supposed to be.
